Dreaming in a Wasteland

Self love, and self harm
 A duality so damning yea we knew it from the start
 Cause' I was born here, so I must die here
 Or maybe I should leave so I don't waste away my life
 A state of fleeting a state of leaving
 Carolina beach homes so alluring and deceiving
 It's suicidal because this is vital
 So please just let me stay and get my shit straight for awhile
 New loves, new jobs, new world
 But we can't get ahead
 We're taking life by the throat til it chokes
 Living at our parents' places
 Same bed, same friends same car
 It keeps my head on straight
 I cant be the one that has shut the light off
 Enter a comfortable culture where you're encouraged to dream
 As long as life's in order by the time that you're 18
 Downplay, all the pressures that be
 And bury every horrible thought you conceive
 What
 I'd Give
 To never
 Feel
 All these expectations that seem to interfere
 Crushing
 My chest
 And now I can't catch my breath
 To protest
 New loves, new jobs, new world
 But we can't get ahead
 We're taking life by the throat til it chokes
 Living at our parents' places
 Same bed, same friends, same car
 It keeps my head on straight
 I cant be the one to shut the light off
 What about this makes you think you know
 That all your needed answers will soon start to show
 If you reset your life, you just pick up and leave
 That's a fictional prospect to me, don't you see?
 I'm at the throat of existence with the world in my hands
 I'm living thousands of lives dreaming in a wasteland
 My door opens I see your rope end
 Forever frozen in time watching sands fall