Why Me

It all started yesterday, and now I can't think about nothing
 Is it real, I know this can't be heaven sent
 Wish I could dream it all away
 And now all I need is a drug
 That can help me make it through another day
 Maybe its just me it won't let me be
 And I don't really know what it is that keeps bothering me
 But I'm saying
 (Why me?) I wanna know how it is
 To see the sun shining even if it isn't
 (Why me?) I dont wanna know how it is
 To hear me say it's all love when it isn't
 (Why me?) I wanna know how it feels
 To hear you laughing in my ear
 (Why me?) I don't wanna know how it feels
 If you didn't cheer
 How can he handle this... too many damages
 He hit the nail on the head but never knew right where the hammer was
 Don't think so loud, don't let them hear you scream
 Baby it's even bigger than it seems
 Now, now, now crazy is an act alike
 Getting better in the after life or maybe not
 Maybe I can ask her why the normality passed me by why when I'm a titan
 Continue to breathe it dependent on people to get my mental state
 Am I meant for this?
 The Christian Krizz just have to wait
 Pictures getting clearer it ain't me in the mirror
 See its that other nigga only his egos bigger
 And he'll pull the tigger when I usually hesitate
 And he'll go on 'em when I'm steadly saying wait
 Now I'm just a shell of myself
 I dont want anybodies help
 Maybe I do maybe I do this for you
 This is my own hell
 Is there a bottle some kind type posion that can end it
 A different god I can pray to
 Some type of doctor to fix it
 Maybe its just me it won't let me be
 And I'm to helpless, I guess
 (Why me?)
 I wanna know how it is to see the sun shining even if it isn't
 (Why me?)
 I dont wanna know how it is to hear me say it's all love when it isn't
 (Why me?)
 I wanna know how it feels to hear you laughing in my ear
 (Why me?)
 I don't wanna know how it feels if you didn't cheer
 How can he handle this
 Too many damages
 He hit the nail on the head but never knew right where the hammer was
 Don't think so loud, don't let them hear you scream
 Baby it's even bigger than it seems
 How big is the fight in me
 Frightfully fighting night to be day
 I'm wishing that wifey would knife me for spiteful things that I say
 Excuse me for thinking this way, I'm a little bit pessimistic
 They sending blessing this way I guess I must of missed 'em
 See my teary eyes through my Ray-Bans
 Turning off the world and still looking for some amens
 The girlies pee-pee when they see me, fans, they dance
 Look in the mirror wanna see me
 Here's their chance
 (Speaking)
 Hope you like what you see
 Okay
 Hope you like what you see
 Kali Baby
 Okay