Vanity

I don't think I want to do this anymore
 Look, you want me to ask for forgiveness again and again
 Like you're telling me my love isn't complete
 I say it's more like a run order, I guess
 I guess I don't have the right to ask for forgiveness then, right?
 I want to believe what I heard somewhere a long time ago that, that love is free and kind
 And you're trying to act like you're all humble and wise but
 What you call love is destroying my life and it's destroying your soul (destroying your life?) if you ever had one, I
 I don't even think you even know what it means to love, or to be loved
 See, see look, we've got so much to learn
 It's like this thrifty and new words they seem perfect and then they corner us like this
 Like this Leonidas curse with a Midas touch and it's mighty rum
 Listen this is the real, that gritty, gory, and gorgeous, it's like, it's like coco butter
 Laced with sandpaper, see this is love
 Of course your, your words, so enticing and the imagery like some Messiah
 Living and dying for me and then asking to save me
 But wait, what about the freedom that truth brings?
 What about the protection that love brings?
 See, oh, oh, yeah, so, so this is your kiss to send me off right?
 Like I ain't been no shelter (shelter?)
 Like those bruises on your arms ain't no badges of honor?
 And these ornery onlookers they keep questioning my methods
 But look, this means I am in your atrium, like ancient drones
 You used to dance with me, why can't you just dance with me? (You mean slavery?)
 Slavery? You owe me your life
 I don't belong to anyone but me
 Oh wait, which, which one of us is being selfish here?
 Who could be selfish?
 Yeah, yeah, you trying to rob me? (I can't owe what you never gave) you will always owe me
 And the love you gave was never love!