Splitting Atoms

I was thinking of this Plan
 Of codes and anagrams divine
 The juxtaposition of past and present time
 That was mine
 I spent blind
 In someone else's state of mind
 I lost my way
 In all the shades of gray
 And grandes of shade
 Shadows put away to be forgotten
 I lost my way
 In all the shades of gray
 And grades of shade
 Shadows put away to be forgotten
 I lost but didn't lose the lesson
 Yes I'm
 Learning from falling
 I'm learning from falling down
 Hard
 Lessons
 Yes I'm
 Learning, learning from falling
 I'm learning from falling
 Down heavily
 This immortal span
 Of every mortal man
 And the grand stand
 And I'm holding on tight with an open hand
 Keeping in mind
 The grand design
 With sight in hind
 And you
 Never get a second chance
 At the first time
 What I thought I knew
 What I thought was true
 I cast away, cast away
 I am learning the hard way
 I'm learning from falling I'm learning
 From falling down
 Hard, lessons
 Yes I'm learning from falling
 Learning from falling
 Learning from falling
 Down heavily
 My words like empty shells
 Of a rusty gun
 Fall
 None
 Fire
 Every on backfires
 Oh and there I was
 There I was
 Splitting atoms with my desire
 There you go
 There you go
 Building castles with your ego
 I know I know better now
 I know better now
 I'm learning from falling I'm learning
 From falling down
 Hard, lessons
 Yes I'm learning from falling
 Learning from falling
 Learning from falling
 Down heavily
 There I was, there I was
 Splitting atoms with my desire
 There you go, there you go
 Building castles with your ego
 I know, I know better now
 I know better now