Tracks of Decay

Here comes the train
 Pained and wailing
 Eye focused on you warily
 But still unblinking
 Is this the one I'm supposed to bring
 For this next journey
 Endless and complex
 Injuries you'll never be prepared to dress
 A hundred stops you'll sleep away
 Then wake to wish you hadn't and
 You take your time packing light
 I never could comprehend
 How it took you hours to finally end
 Up with a list of twenty forgotten things
 To the naive eye not the headlight
 You might appear to actually care for something
 But you're not guarding this life with your own,
 Just risking mine
 What a fucking waste
 This time
 Remember when I said you were bound to make another mistake
 Was it stupidity or a self-fulfilling prophecy
 Self-fulfilled
 I should say
 Unless you were planning on
 One more fuck up today
 Another idiot's dance
 Are we just supposed to watch and laugh
 We're far from amused
 In fact we might as well be lying on the tracks
 Here comes the crash
 Too fast to catch my heart
 Propelled from my chest while my body
 Lurched and halted with the brakes
 While everything else seems to slow around me
 I can't believe this is happening again
 I was never meant to be here
 I complain
 Because for a moment the ride was steady
 But your devastation was inevitable
 Expected
 Yet unavoidable
 Like the cycle of natural wildfire
 The peril is far too close
 To allow any delay in my stride
 The deaths and wounds are far too real
 For me just to stand and gape
 Wide-eyed
 Like the crowd
 That can't help themselves
 Or us
 I'm sorry
 But I won't be entertained by your train wreck life
 Will it be neglect or abuse
 That puts you underground
 Your tracks are sore from overuse
 And they're finally wearing down
 A scar for every accident
 New waste to block the way
 All aboard your train wreck life
 Last stop
 Tracks of decay