a letter to you

We were only teens, barely sixteen
 You were in your bedroom while I was out doing big things
 We used to talk about our dreams on the phone
 Till' your mom comes home from work
 We say our goodbyes
 And you try to get some rest
 I stare at my ceiling thinking about your voice through the phone
 How can I fall in love so fast,
 Is this even real?
 Or is this a dream from the past
 I start to wonder if you feel the same
 You're different
 Was the first thing you told me in the morning
 When you opened up your beautiful eyes
 During school, i could feel your prescence right beside me
 I couldn't stop thinking about you that day
 You made me get my phone taken by my Bio teacher
 Remember that?
 I remember how we told our moms about eachother
 I remember you turning goth for a day
 No matter what lifestyle you tried to fit into
 It always looked so good on you
 Remember how I saved your contact as future wife?
 How could I ever forget about our talks
 About running away together to some
 Small town down in the country
 Faking our deaths and everything
 Wanting to start a family
 You would have been such a great mom,
 And an even better wife
 We both told our friends about eachother
 We had eachother in our instagram bios
 Fast forward about three months and
 We're already not doing good
 Useless arguments, recording messages and calls
 I caused you so much stress you didn't deserve
 I can feel you losing interrest
 And don't forget that facetime call we had
 Where we cried together
 I wanted to hold you so tight and never let go
 You were my other half
 We break up for a little
 We try to find somebody new
 Now its june school's out and
 You already met somebody brand new
 Seeing you smile with him made me
 Regret the hardships i put you through
 July comes around and you blow up my phone
 The same way you blew it up
 When i didn't reply after ten minutes
 It's around 2 am and you call me crying
 I ask what's wrong and you're as silent as a broken hearted girl
 You eventually tell me that you're sorry for everything
 And that your man left you
 Two years pass and I haven't heard from you since two julys ago
 I'm about to get on stage and perform
 Have you forgotten about me?
 Are you living a happy life with a new man?
 I walk on to the stage and perform my music
 Towards the end I could scan the crowd
 Surprisingly I see you with the biggest smile on your face
 I haven't been the same without you
 And knowing you still support me inspires me to do the best
 That night I stay with you inside your room
 Dimmed lavender L-e-d lights barely light up your room in you attic
 I remember you told me how much you loved it up there
 It feels like we're falling in live again
 Seven years passed
 Seven years passed and we finally have kids of our own
 We buy a nice house in a small town in the midwest
 Just how you wanted it
 Our kids eventually grow older and have their own kids
 You feel old yet sweety?
 We're grandparents now
 Now we're stuck inside the hospital
 Lying on your deathbed
 I grab your hand and we start reviewing our life together
 Remembering all the fun times we had as teens
 Getting married, buying our first house together
 Everything seemed to go by so quickly
 The doctor walks in and tells us it's time
 You look me in the eye one last time
 I start to feel your hand lose grip
 As tears slowly rolls down your eye
 I will never forget you
 I will never forget you
 And we say
 And we say our final
 And we say our final goodbyes
 Every now and again i still visit your grave
 Just beyond the bench we used to sit at
 Late at night when we were reckless teens
 Nobody ever told you how much i loved you
 I loved you more than love itself
 I miss you