Before and After

This is hard for me to write it's difficult to express this
 Its heavy on my shoulders and the weight gets relentless
 The story of brothers and a beautiful friendship
 And how relations get strained with pressure and tension
 Who's wrong, correct, so, so, subjective
 You look back its hard cos the mind gets adventurous
 Dates get mixed up facts disconnected
 The only thing you remember is the feeling that you're left with
 It started as a blessing
 Now you could write this off as luck or one of life's coincidences
 But at some point you think god damn what are the chances
 People with similar interests and influences
 Coming together at that moment to form a kinship
 It's like you knew that you was brothers before your conception
 Even if you're not a spiritual person I admit shit
 At that point I wasn't but at some point it sets in
 It be foolish to dismiss this as coincidence
 Now this shit is different, somewhere this is written
 Be part of a mission, this shit is predestined
 Closer than close like flesh is to tendon
 Share my 50 cent bag of chips with my freshman
 Half a half a gas station sandwich no question
 Talking shit to me well then talking shit to him then
 Family is sacred it must be protected
 Family is sacred and it must be protected
 Over time I don't know what happens something got infected
 People grow in different ways at different rates I guess
 It ridiculous, little shit it suddenly gets big shit
 Lapses in communication, glitches in the system
 He said that she said what nobody said shit
 But you'll never know cos everyone's passive aggressive
 I sit down smoke pow wow how everyone said shit
 People cease to make the effort to get to the essence
 Peep this shit out though this shit is really twisted
 Funny thing is that you and I do it every minute
 We take it in rhetoric every time somebody says shit
 Against us stock piling every little incident
 What's stupid is all the bullshit that's circulating
 Could be fixed in an instant with simple conversation
 But you know how pride is
 A bitch with her fist clenched
 That mixed with the fat drama gets addictive
 Wounds need dressing and they don't receive attention
 It snowballs and festers and creates resentment
 People demonise each other brave discontentment
 But nobody could've been prepared for the next step
 The nature of the predator is calculated pensive
 Waiting in the brush patiently revving they engines
 Despite the colour that they got all they see is crimson
 Waiting for they prey to become desperate defenceless
 Outside is always over just beyond the fences
 Today the gate is open though today they make an entrance
 Friendly at first laughs jokes like we best friends
 Slowly though you start to see they become hidden agendas
 Nine to five one day insecure self perceptions
 Shines a spotlight on all those paranoid self perceptions
 Things begin to heat up everyone's already stretched thin
 How could you be well how could you be so deceptive
 Any second now someone will snap like a bread stick
 And what once was simply dissolves like a breath mint
 Just like that you start to ask yourself questions
 Is this really worth all the emotion and depressment
 Do the benefits and perks outweigh the pressure
 Let me step back give this relationship assessment