Hating Halloween

I still see you in the corner of my eye
 Walking down the streets of New York City
 Never felt so dark or made me cry
 Autumn stings a little more this time of year
 Children scream in celebration, oh, you'd hate these decorations
 Oh I knew you hated carving faces into pumpkins
 It scared you the way they smiled back
 October hurts when I'm not wasted
 I'm thinking on bittersweet memories
 Of how you always hated Halloween
 Every witch and werewolf knocking at my door
 Holds a smiling face, an empty bag
 The same routine you'd whine about before
 But I open hoping you'll be there, dressed in something childish
 Oh my wish: to see you again
 Oh I knew you hated carving faces into pumpkins
 It scared you the way they smiled back
 October hurts when I'm not wasted
 I'm thinking on bittersweet memories
 Of how you always hated Halloween
 Won't you come to me
 Let's make costumes fun again
 Drink and talk until it's 5 AM
 Oh, I remember when
 Hallow's Eve was
 About grieving
 For the ghosts we leave behind
 Once the candy bowl is empty I retire
 In my living room, a beer in hand
 A toast with every can till I'm too tired
 I'm on the couch each night with you on my mind
 An open can for you each year
 Sleeping in my drunken tears
 Oh I knew you hated carving faces into pumpkins
 It scared you the way they smiled back
 October hurts when I'm not wasted
 I'm thinking on bittersweet memories
 Of how you always hated Halloween