Nervous

Sometimes I lie
 Sometimes I convince myself that everything's fine
 I'm such a good actress
 When I say that I miss you, I miss you, I miss you
 I think that I actually do
 And I almost forget there's so much messed up between me and you
 If I close my eyes, I can't even see
 I'm in a fucked state of mind
 This can't last forever
 I want the attention, I want the affection
 Then you take up all of my time
 And besides the sex there's nothing left
 There is nothing left
 I know why I lie to myself (I know why I lie to myself)
 I'm not really looking to get healthy
 I have so many perspectives, I'm losing perspective
 I make me nervous
 I make me nervous
 I make me nervous
 Is it OK?
 That I might be using you for my own escape
 I know that it's selfish
 For me to expect you to understand where I been
 When you been here the whole time
 As messed up as it is, can we admit it?
 Can we just say it?
 I know why I lie to myself (I lie to myself)
 I'm not really looking to get healthy
 I have so many perspectives, I'm losing perspective
 I make me nervous
 I make me nervous
 I make me nervous
 I know it's fine like every other time
 I know that I lie a little bit every time, almost every time
 I don't mean to ruin things
 But I could say anything
 Sometimes I could say anything
 I know why I lie to myself (I lie to myself)
 I'm not really looking to get healthy
 I have so many perspectives, I'm losing perspective
 I make me nervous
 I make me nervous, oh
 I know why I lie to myself (I lie to myself)
 I'm not really looking to get healthy
 I have so many perspectives, I'm losing perspective
 I make me nervous
 I make me nervous
 I make me nervous
 I make me nervous
 I make me nervous