Suicidol

I didn't ask to be born
 But I am terrified
 To die as much as I am terrified of life
 Give me a reason to live
 To justify
 These marks of worthless existence
 That I glorify
 It's not going to be okay
 I'm your idol, idol
 Your suicidol, suicidol
 I am the one who fills your void
 Now come sing with me
 Your ideal, ideal
 You're suicidal, suicidal
 Nothing would save us from this life
 Now come scream with me
 You wanted to love this world
 But what's left is the hatred towards yourself
 In fact you have been realizing that there is no meaning
 Reenact your death, embrace the emptiness
 Open up the gate of flesh, reality is cold and cruel
 Was it comforting a little bit in the madness you are drenched in?
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 It's not that I adore death
 It's just that I despise life
 I still love you
 I just could not love myself anymore
 It's not going to be okay
 I'm your idol, idol
 Your suicidol, suicidol
 I am the one who fills your void
 Now come sing with me
 Your ideal, ideal
 You're suicidal, suicidal
 Nothing would save us from this life
 Now come scream with me
 The world is full of misery
 There is no hope in sight
 You are trying over and over again to pull yourself up a little higher
 But you are only falling lower and lower again until you are completely drained out
 I know how you feel
 Don't cry anymore
 It will all end soon
 Because
 I'll die instead of you
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 It's not going to be okay
 Open up the gate of flesh, your ideal is too far to reach
 Was it comforting a little bit in the madness you are drenched in?