My Best Habit

To begin, I'm not sorry
 For myself or any part of me
 I won't beg on your pardon, you see
 You know I'm not a human
 One part anxiety using two parts naivety
 Just to keep sane
 I'm a bitter little pill to swallow
 I'm a little bit of let down, my
 My feet are hard to follow
 My best habit's lettin' you down
 Am I makin' any sense? I don't know
 I'm a little bit of let down, my
 My feet are mine to follow
 You don't get to decide
 If you were waitin' on the sunshine, blue sky
 Cheap high, lullaby
 Then my best habit's letting you down
 And if you're searching for a sure thing, nice dream
 Somethin' like a machine
 Then my best habit's letting you down
 To you, I don't exist
 Ain't what you're lookin' for
 Good thing I don't exist for you at all anymore
 So if you're waitin' on the sunshine, blue sky
 Cheap high, lullaby
 Then my best habit's letting you down
 Now we're back to the matter
 Well, if it's average you're after
 Or ordinary, you'll have to move on
 See, without me, I'm not myself
 If I'm not me, then I am everyone else
 And then who would be John?
 I'm a bitter little pill to swallow
 I'm a little bit of let down, my
 My feet are hard to follow
 My best habit's lettin' you down
 Am I makin' any sense? I don't know
 I'm a little bit of let down, my
 My feet are mine to follow
 You don't get to decide
 If you were waitin' on the sunshine, blue sky
 Cheap high, lullaby
 Then my best habit's letting you down
 And if you're searching for a sure thing, nice dream
 Somethin' like a machine
 Then my best habit's letting you down
 To you, I don't exist
 Ain't what you're lookin' for
 Good thing I don't exist for you at all anymore
 So if you're waitin' on the sunshine, blue sky
 Cheap high, lullaby
 Then my best habit's letting you down
 As a single tear falls to the ground
 For the people that we are not now
 If you're not you, you're everyone else
 Who are you? Who are you now?
 Burned our teenage years down to the ground
 Oh, the hand on the clock's wearing out
 If you're not you, you're everyone else
 Who are you? Who are you?
 If you were waitin' on the sunshine, blue sky
 Cheap high, lullaby
 Then my best habit's letting you down
 If you were waitin' on the sunshine, blue sky
 Cheap high, lullaby
 Then my best habit's letting you down
 And if you're searching for a sure thing, nice dream
 Somethin' like a machine
 Then my best habit's letting you down
 To you, I don't exist
 Ain't what you're lookin' for
 Good thing I don't exist for you at all anymore
 So if you're waitin' on the sunshine, blue sky
 Cheap high, lullaby
 Then my best habit's letting you down