Subject to Change

I enjoy the company lately but
 You and I are a crowd so I hope
 You can understand that tonight
 I wanna be with an old friend I've been missing
 If I hold this in just one more day
 I'm pretty sure I'm bound to break
 I've waited way too long to get this off my chest
 (But I know!)
 I've been barking up the same damn tree
 for the past two years
 And maybe this time it's no one else's fault
 But my own
 Believe me I'm sorry if you took things too personally
 I don't know where I've been for these past few months
 I can't believe that I got this low
 I've listened to the "Upsides" B-Side
 Looking for the answers to what you've been asking
 I've been preaching "Keep your Head Up, Kid!"
 When all along I've had mine buried in the sand and
 I think thats got to do with everything we never talked about
 People constantly change all around me
 The friends I had are completely different now
 They've all been hyped up on shit and its making me sick
 It's getting painful to watch them fail
 I've been tracing these sidewalks
 Until these side streets got the best of me
 I'm a sucker for memories
 (And the way things used to be)
 I don't know where I've been for these past few months
 I can't believe that I got this low
 I've listened to the "Upsides" B-Side
 Looking for the answers to what you've been asking
 I've been preaching "Keep your Head Up, Kid!"
 When all along I've had mine buried in the sand and
 I think that's got to do with everything we never talked about
 I think I've gotten better at letting shit go
 Like that time down on market
 Where we told Sixx I'm sorry
 Or that time that Mike B. stopped calling completely
 But let's be honest
 Who The Fuck Am I Kidding?