Maybe I'll Wait

I am waiting for the Sun to block itself out
 I have been told that it won't happen for a while
 I feel sensitive and old
 And I am 10, no I am 24
 I don't know what I do it for
 I wish could write something to convince you not to go
 But I don't know anyone or anything
 To do the right thing when they're alone
 Except it feels like I've been trying to
 Be better since I've known what better was
 And I'm better off alone
 Do you suspect they never loved you
 Just themselves reflected off
 'Cause I don't know
 Maybe I'll wait
 Maybe I'll stay another year or two, okay
 Maybe I'll wait
 Maybe I'll stay another year
 I won't ever get you back
 I can't even kill a cockroach
 You got it with a broom
 At least I hid inside my room
 I am as useless as they come
 And are you used to all this talk yet
 You say I don't like myself but I've been trying to reverse it
 And do you know anyone or anything to
 Do the right thing when they're alone
 Because it feels like I've been trying
 To be better but I know it's what it was
 You're always better off alone
 Because I doubt that you could love me
 Maybe yourself reflected off
 Maybe I'll wait
 Maybe I'll stay another year or two, okay
 Maybe I'll wait
 Maybe I'll stay another year
 But I'll keep lookin' for you
 Another year and nothing different or new
 I've got things that I wanted to do
 So I'll keep looking for you