Internal Dialogue

It must have been hard
 Staying in line
 Knowing your influences
 Did it all the time
 It must have been strange
 Living in blue
 And see me shut down
 As though It ewas an easy thing to do
 But you could tell where I had been
 By the way I held my gun
 Trying to write anything
 While being mocked by an off beat drum
 But I was not honest
 I was not healthy
 Yeah, I was not honest
 Honest
 You did the right thing
 Covered your scars
 Challenged your faith
 And closed your eyes driving cars
 For all that they knew
 You were safe home
 But you went through hell whenever you were left alone
 And you could see where I had been
 From the pictures that they took
 I tried to look positive at things
 Faced myself but didn't look
 That was not honest
 I was not healthy
 I am not honest
 Honest
 I wish you could see
 Yourself through my eyes
 There's no need to cling to unnecessary lies
 The voice in your head
 Whose spirit you stole
 Left you for dead but you dug the hole
 And I could tell where you had been
 From the marks around your wrists
 The red water washed away your sins
 But are you as pure as this?
 No you are not honest
 You are not healthy
 You are not honest
 Honest
 No you are not honest
 You are not healthy
 You are not honest
 Honest