Blossom

Where will you go when you realize that I'm a lost hope?
 I know that you know it, you try not to show it
 It's okay, I don't blame you, I blame myself
 My indecisions decide themselves
 We fell in love so young
 Our roots became one and the same
 But we'll grow and we'll change
 No matter what you do or where you go home to
 You'll have a home in my veins
 I won't bury you in my head
 I won't ever hold you back again
 I've been so settled on not settling, I've been settling for less
 All my nerves are shutting down
 All I'm left with is depression and this
 Fucking emptiness that I've allowed to take control
 And I don't know if I'm strong enough to even fucking let this go
 Where will you go when you realize that I'm a lost hope?
 I know that you know it, you try not to show it
 It's okay, I don't blame you - I blame myself
 My indecisions decide themselves
 Only I can get myself out of this mess
 'Cause I can't leech off your confidence forever
 I became the dead weight tethered to your feet
 Dragging you further down here with me
 I've been there for a while now
 And as I'm sinking in, I bleed you out
 But slow enough that you just cope with it
 You're finding comfort in the pain
 I don't want to keep you from what you deserve
 I'm not worth it anyway
 Where will you go when you realize that I'm a lost hope?
 I know that you know it, you try not to show it
 It's okay, I don't blame you - I blame myself
 My indecisions decide themselves
 Leave, just leave me here
 I've shed the skin of who you love, who I was has disappeared
 You won't believe me, you see me through the painted glass
 It's what's keeping us together, but how much longer can it last?