Cautiously Optimistic

I used to get in fights to bitter ends for shitty friends back
 Before I realized the toll it takes
 I used to end my nights all teary eyed in the Uber ride home
 Before you had your own drawer at my place
 As I've been told by boys I know
 I'm the most jaded girl they know
 I've always been painfully realistic
 But now I'm cautiously optimistic
 When I think about my high school crush, how I held a grudge 'cause
 I had to watch him dance with her at prom
 But now I'm learning how to make my peace with that
 Packing all my bags and leave the past
 Keep the dress and move on
 As I've been told by boys I know
 I'm the most jaded girl they know
 I've always been painfully realistic
 But now I'm cautiously optimistic
 I still miss my friends, I still wonder what I should've said
 I still feel alone when I'm in the car on my way home
 18 was rough being the girl running out of the prom
 'Cause she wasn't enough
 But now I'm in love
 I've always been painfully realistic
 But now I'm cautiously optimistic