I Refuse

Hold up, here we are again
 Trying to get ahold of my mind again
 I'm in a battle for my thoughts and depressed again
 I don't know why this is happening
 Something in my mind is against the flow
 And I can feel a constant power struggle over my soul
 It's like there's two voices and I can't condone
 The behavior of my mind that I can't control
 My friends keep asking if I'm doing alright
 I say I'm fine
 That's a lie, I'm trying to survive
 Trying to keep my chin up and to pick up the slack
 I'm tired of playing a defense I wanna attack
 I've had enough of the doubt and enough of the lies
 I'm tired of always being so awake at night
 So I hope you understand, there's a line in the sand
 You wanna come back?
 Talk to the hand
 I'm done running today
 You can't have your way
 I'm done hearing all the lies you have to say
 This is the fight for my life
 So I'll face you tonight
 This time
 You're not going to prey on me
 I'm finally feeling alive for the very first time
 I'm finally winning in the war inside my mind
 I'm done listening to you
 There's nothing left you can do
 You try to get at me again but
 I refuse
 Wanna move but my hands are tied
 Why could I never see right through your lies
 It's like the part of you has just occupied
 The space in my mind where my thoughts reside
 Feels like an eternity
 Been fighting for the battle for the life of me
 Just trying to find the strength to find my inner peace
 But it's hard to keep on breathing when your sinking deep
 No more with living in the prison that you built to keep me hidden
 From the truth that you were spinning all your lies into wisdom
 Like a virus in my system trying to kill me while I'm trippin'
 So I gotta keep my distance I refuse to be a victim
 I've had enough of the stress so I'll rise and I'll fight
 I've been over this since you stole my life
 It's time to take it back and to find the light
 I'm bringing revolution and it starts tonight
 I'm done running today
 You can't have your way
 I'm done hearing all the lies you have to say
 This is the fight for my life
 So I'll face you tonight
 This time
 You're not going to prey on me
 I'm finally feeling alive for the very first time
 I'm finally winning in the war inside my mind
 I'm done listening to you
 There's nothing left you can do
 You try to get at me again but
 I refuse
 I'm done running today
 You can't have your way
 I'm done hearing all the lies you have to say
 This is the fight for my life
 So I'll face you tonight
 This time
 You're not going to prey on me
 I'm finally feeling alive for the very first time
 I'm finally winning in the war inside my mind
 I'm done listening to you
 There's nothing left you can do
 You try to get at me again but
 I refuse