As It Goes

Think it was 4 weeks ago I had another friend dip
 Talked about losing his head again, I know the feeling mate
 And she
 When we say she in songs you know we mean trouble
 Nah jokes
 But seriously though I was in kinda trouble
 I'd forgotten who I was for about a month,
 Head was deep in the music thing and I was making beats for the boys
 But I'd forgotten about me and my girlfriend's anniversary
 I always forget something
 Always fucking forget something
 I unfortunately didn't take it like a champ
 I kicked off like "How am I supposed to remember everything?
 You ain't my calendar, it's a madness.
 I don't even schedule in breaks any more!"
 That kinda thing
 Fully my problem though init
 So I was finding life hard again
 Pretty hard
 Just like the best of us do
 Wish I fucking liked it more
 Wish I fucking liked it more
 Once drunk in love once drugs I loved once took enough to lose enough
 As it goes
 Benzos benzos and no hopes
 Train wreck heads a mess you know the ones
 Anyways, that nostalgia's a killer I'll tell you that much
 You ever scroll through your old photos
 and think life was always better beforehand?
 I was doing that for what felt like ages
 Obsessing over getting my life together
 while wasting time trying to get my life together
 She had no time left for that shit
 Plus the fact I treated her like shit most days
 Push and pull I was told to call it
 I want you I don't want you but I need you always
 Usually ended up screaming that I didn't need her but I did
 Was clear as day when she left
 Ah fuck I've done it now
 The support circle dwindles once more
 I'll make that 2 Guinness then
 Alright let's make a plan to get her back
 Think you've been a fuck up long enough it
 doesn't seem to look as cool anymore, does it?
 Does it?