Queen of Fortune

I said to the fortune teller
 Won't you please read me my cards
 She laid out the deck and asked me
 How I'd ever gotten this far?
 I was born by the sea of misfortune
 I was dragged by thte scruff of my neck
 Through the drought ravaged fields my house was built in
 Irrigated lawns in an orange sunset
 When I was grown I crawled out this city
 Covered by a blanket of smoke
 And I pulled myself up to higher ground
 To look around before I choked
 And now I'll fight both tooth and nail
 Until I get when I'm going to get
 I'll hang on with the jaws of a pit bull
 I won't let go of what my vision is
 I am the king of war
 I am a rotten dove
 I am the face of innocence lost
 I can't find a thing to love
 If you hear kicking or your hear screaming
 From the coast of the valley high
 And you hear of shootings or of beatings
 Do you try and shield your eye?
 Do you just chalk it up to a sign of the times?
 Do you talk about the fighting?
 Never stand up so much as feel uneasy
 Never speak up so much as think we're dreaming
 And I am the dream of a child
 I am the doors of the tor store open wide
 With my shelves picked clean and empty
 I am the dream of a child
 I was told what to be but not how to do it
 Told to believe but not ever why
 I go through days where it's always raining
 My common sense says the sun's in the sky
 Well is this faith to keep on trying
 Or am I a dog who knows when to die?
 I won't know a thing as my flesh turns to soil
 These days they just rush by
 I am the king of war
 I am a rotten dove
 I am the queen of your fortune
 And I am your blind, blind love
 I am the weight of your memory
 I am the shadow of fear
 I am the question of the future
 When your vision turns unclear