Dissipate

My mind is heavy with the weight of where I've been
 And overbearing distance between me and myself
 Pray that I will make it through the day
 Pray that my hands won't start to shake
 My inner workings mend and break
 I mend and break
 I start to shake
 Mend and break
 And you had to watch me slip away into a state that haunts me every day
 And I'm sorry for the mess that I've become
 It haunts me every day and I felt myself fade again
 And I hope one day I'll leave this place
 But what hurts the most is seeing the ones I love
 Being afraid of where I go when I am alone
 When the bedroom floor becomes my home
 I shut my eyes, hold my ears and bury myself in guilt
 And you had to watch me slip away into a state that haunts me every day
 And I'm sorry for the mess that I've become
 It haunts me every day and I felt myself fade again
 And I hope one day I'll leave this place
 I've broken my spine
 Bending over backwards to ease my aches
 So stay, don't dissipate when I'm wearing thin in misery
 I'm still here
 Don't fade away when I'm wearing thin
 Promise me, promise me