Epilogue

If this is life that I'm living
 then I wonder what death is like
 With a million questions running
 I've got the feeling that something is not right
 I've tried to be alive
 but I've fallen short
 I am so sick of this cycle
 there must be something more
 This is endless
 This is sickening
 This is everything I never wanted it to be
 This is hell
 This can't be happening
 I'm a failure, I'm a liar, I'm a hypocrite
 I am not who I claim to be
 What could you possibly see in me?
 I could never turn my back on you
 Grace like an ocean, I am lost in the depths of your truth
 You have seen my heart and the wicked things I've done
 And yet you call me "son"
 This is my awakening
 and my call to arms
 Show me this world through the holes in your hands
 I'm alive, I'm alive, I have been set free!
 I was blind but now my eyes are open I can see!
 I am flawed, I am flawed, but You have made me clean!
 I know I'm not perfect but I serve a perfect king!
 I am nothing
 You are everything
 Let this truth resonate in my soul
 Take my life God, I give you control
 I have stumbled
 I have fallen
 I've grown weary, and yet I'm still walking
 I've been stuck here with all these questions in my head
 But I will never forget the words that you have said
 "You are the child of the king. You have been set free.
 There is nothing that can separate you from me.
 I am the one that calls you son,
 I formed you in the womb,
 I conquered the grave, your home is not a tomb."
 God this just can't be
 I'm so unworthy, but your grace has washed me clean
 and now I'm learning that you're changing everything
 and I am not the same
 you made everything change
 When you called my name...
 my heart stopped
 and our pulse became the same
 When you calmed my soul...
 I felt the earth shake and the mountains tremble
 When you called my name...
 I finally came alive again
 When you call me son...
 I feel your blood in my veins and your breath in my lungs
 When you call my name...