Lament

today he died.
 he starred in the void then took his own life
 You watched me cry
 alone in the parking lot as i felt the now and forever collide
 I fight in vain, try to deny, to push back the years, and the weight, and the gray
 but it's in my face, the edge of the infinite, and we're all just inches and seconds away
 my eyes are wide and i feel the weight
 sit down, breathe out, and try not to faint
 or be crushed by the scale of everything
 what is man in the scope of existence
 just a blink on a dot in the dark
 but the patterns that weave through the distance
 bear a voice that proclaims who we are
 Your love oh God, I feel the weight
 for who am I that you know my name
 and then leave me the seas to display with the stars
 that of all you have made you set man apart
 for we are Your treasure
 Your heartbeat surrounds me
 there aren't words to describe what You've shown me
 each man is in your image
 and walking around shining just like the sun
 the depths are not void they resound with the truth
 that there's no peace to rest in, till we find our place in You
 I see their souls, and feel the weight
 oh God forgive each word I waste
 and grant that my throat with the sun would be raised
 to banish the dark because I cannot take
 another death in my silence