Muscle Memory

I've been doing great
 Living gold days
 Working on reconstructing
 Put a lot on my plate
 Right out the gate
 So I don't start self-destructing
 My idle mind is like your plaything
 This vicious cycle isn't breaking
 I got all these new friends
 We go out on the weekends
 Bought those Docter Martens
 I sublet my apartment
 But I'm still hit with muscle memory
 When it's quarter to three
 My hands remember reaching for you
 It's my co-dependency, my muscle memory
 My heart remembers beating for you
 When I was stressed I call you to vent
 Now it's just overwhelming
 Still write those texts, just don't press send
 Stupid and it isn't helping
 I'm a lost cause in the making
 This vicious cycle isn't breaking
 I got all these new friends
 We go out on the weekends
 Bought those Docter Martens
 I sublet my apartment
 But I'm still hit with muscle memory
 When it's quarter to three
 My hands remember reaching for you
 It's my co-dependency, my muscle memory
 My heart remembers beating for you
 I got all these new friends
 We go out on the weekends
 But I'm still hit, hit
 But I'm still hit, hit
 I got all these new friends
 We go out on the weekends
 But I'm still hit, hit
 But I'm still hit, hit