19 in a Week

Am I supposed to like the things we do?
 Cause every time we touch, I feel confused
 It's not like you've not been here before
 I thought by now I'd have it sorted
 But it's not that easy
 I read online somewhere it takes a while
 To see the world not just as a child
 I'll be nineteen in a week
 And never loved a single being
 Cause it's not that easy
 And it hurts me
 That I might be
 Feeling like I'm grown, but I'm still in the backseat
 Caught up in a world where I don't understand me
 Ah ah, ohh ohh ah
 Trying not to rush, but I'm scared that I'll be stuck in the mud
 Now there's dirt on my self-esteem
 And now I'm turning in my sheets
 Cause I'll be nineteen in a week
 Without the numbers, I'd still be a kid
 I dread my birthday every year
 I think it's cool I get to share it with my dad
 But it's a shame he's not here
 Does it hurt you too
 That I wasn't born before 2002?
 Feeling like I'm grown, but I'm still in the backseat
 Caught up in a world where I don't understand me
 Ah ah, ohh ohh ah
 Trying not to rush, but I'm scared that I'll be stuck in the mud
 Now there's dirt on my self-esteem
 And now I'm turning in my sheets
 Cause I'll be nineteen in a week
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 You say that ageing is a mindset
 But I think it's weird you're twenty-five
 I guarantee you still go home to your mum
 Cause there's no food in your fridge to survive