Solitaire

I can pretend
 for you
 that I mean every word said
 it's true
 That I'd probably rather be
 like a stranger in disguise
 And act as if nothing ever
 Died or faded away,
 got lonelier with age
 And time isn't on our side
 I'm sorry to take
 the thoughts that keep you awake
 And make it seem like they're overrated
 You certainly talk about me more when
 I fall down
 And when I get up
 my time is never enough
 Loved in front behind my back hated
 I guess it has everything to do with luck
 I can defend the truth
 but I sound like white noise to my friends
 As I raise my glass to you
 In a stupor we speak words
 That couldn't be more honest
 Lies we lived before
 are fights without a war
 I'm dead when it's in your head
 I'm starting to think that all the buoys we sink
 Are cutting our chances of being saved
 I see that the end is all we have to let us know
 I'd like to believe in something more than a dream
 For when the will to be one has faded
 I guess the truth will soon be deceived
 My friend that isn't there
 My solitaire