The Feel Good Song of the Year

I never thought the day would come when I
 Would be the poison in the pen I use to write
 You said you were alone in somewhat of a nervous tone
 I guess it was the blank look on your face that was easy to replace
 So then I went and drank myself into an idiot all through the night
 Recounting all my paranoid and selfish thoughts but I was right
 
 I made a space for you inside my soul
 And let my feelings kill the part that I control
 So part of you was me, neglectful maybe cold it seemed
 Despite having the wounds we both imbibe, the scars are
 Somewhere we can't hide
 I then stayed up for two more years just thinking of the sacrifice you made
 Indifferent to the reason so apparent in the pain
 I polished off another drink and taught myself to numb and drift away
 For one more night so I could justify the day
 So now I entertain the thought of going on all alone
 But you are all the life I've ever known
 I swear one day I'll get it back something that is already dead and gone
 Again i see the trumpet player looking for his song
 Don't worry I won't follow you, that part of me is learning to let got
 What was a space is like a cancer in my soul