Stick Season

As you promised me that I was more than all the miles combined
 You must have had yourself a change of heart like
 Halfway through the drive
 'Cause your voice trailed off exactly as you passed my exit sign
 Kept on drivin' straight and left our future to the right
 Now I am stuck between my anger and the blame that I can't face
 And memories are somethin' even smoking weed does not replace
 And I am terrified of weather 'cause I see you when it rains
 Doc told me to travel, but there's Covid on the planes
 And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks
 And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed
 And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim
 I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas
 And I'll dream each night of some version of you
 That I might not have, but I did not lose
 Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes
 And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do
 
 So I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad
 That I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad
 No, I am no longer funny, 'cause I miss the way you laugh
 You once called me forever, now you still can't call me back
 And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks
 And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed
 And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim
 I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas
 And I'll dream each night of some version of you
 That I might not have, but I did not lose
 Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes
 And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do
 Oh, that'll have to do
 My other half was you
 I hope this pain's just passin' through
 But I doubt it
 And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks
 And I saw your mom, she forgot that I existed
 And it's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim
 I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas
 And I'll dream each night of some version of you
 That I might not have, but I did not lose
 Now you're tire tracks and one pair of shoes
 And I'm split in half, but that'll have to do
 Have to do