ski mask

I'm looking for a reason
 one that will keep me here this time
 it's this damned season
 I pray for harmony here this time
 I'm nervous in the season
 I've got to show everyone who I am
 no one said it would be easy
 to be a pseudolamb inside a man
 so, shoot me down
 I pray for harmony in sight of god
 so, shoot me down
 I'm forgetting my place again
 at best I'm pretentious
 tangents in my mind are easier to find
 at best I'm not quiet
 the best of my words fall short before they lie
 you won't understand
 at best I'm optimistic
 I don't hate this world one bit
 I just hate being in it
 I just want to be kind
 but I'm angry in every way
 I am the devil
 and the deep blue sea
 and I take myself too seriously