Misleading the Story

He said words knowing full well are suspect
 Felt the burn in his lower intestine
 I say get past the moment, let it subside
 I don't know how I did, but I got here
 Candle lit in my mind's eye, but not clear
 I know, I know
 I know the truth is in between
 I don't want to feel it so I won't
 Even when I lose it I'll implode
 Every lie is cyanide
 A dose to keep the secret
 I don't want to feel it so I don't
 Sad song, I defect to write it
 Dried tears, do your best to hide it
 And I can't handle your face in this moment
 Quick, find the exit
 Quick, find the exit
 Ah-ah-ah-ah
 Ah-ah-ah-ah
 I don't want to feel it so I won't
 Even when I lose it I'll implode
 Every lie is cyanide
 A dose to keep the secret
 I don't wanna feel it so I don't
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 I don't care
 I don't care because
 They like me better when
 I did what they wanted
 I don't care
 I don't care because
 I like me better when
 I am cold and reckless
 Upset and inciting an inner war
 Upset and misleading the story
 Upset and inciting an inner war
 Upset and misleading
 I don't want to feel it so I won't
 Even when we lose it I'll implode
 Every lie is cyanide
 A dose to keep the secret
 I don't wanna feel it so I don't
 So I don't
 Quick, find the exit!