A Sorry Mess

Fucking scared of having children
 Fucking scared of raising them wrong
 Scared of pushing them into this
 Shithole that is life
 I'm petrified of even just the
 Thought of marriage I'm terrified that
 I'd screw up commitment and just
 End up living a lie
 Futures they are fragile things
 Plans they crumble and
 I don't know what tomorrow brings
 I'm scared, I fear
 I'm scared, I fear
 That I'll end up a sorry mess, yeah
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 I'm worried that my choices will just
 Lead me back to where I was
 Failure remains to be my greatest
 Phobia in life
 I don't wanna be remembered as that
 Chick who lived a half assed life
 Dreams don't all come true, for a reason
 And I'm finding out why
 Futures they are fragile things
 One wrong move and
 You might lose what tomorrow brings
 I'm scared, I fear
 I'm scared, I fear
 That I'll end up a sorry mess, yeah
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 Time flies and I can't buy
 The seconds that just tick by and
 God knows I can't hide
 The past that I left behind
 But I really don't wanna let it define me
 I know what I wanna be
 So give me a chance, give me a hand
 Give me a moment, let me understand
 How to human, how to live
 How to not feel like I wanna jump off a cliff
 I wanna live, I love to live, but
 Breathing ain't the same as living
 It's hard to know the diff
 I'm just ranting, no order to my words
 That's how it is in my world
 I'm scared, I fear
 I'm scared, I fear
 That I'll end up a sorry mess, yeah
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 I'm scared, I fear
 I'm scared, I fear
 That I'll end up a sorry mess, yeah
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 A pretty sorry mess that is
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 I'll end up a sorry mess
 A pretty sorry mess that is