Mother's Day

My Fatherless growth...
 could have easily meant loss of all hope
 but mom was the rope
 reeling me in when I couldn't float
 For i'd have eloped with dope if she hadn't taught me to cope
 opened up my scope of vision overcomin' the 'khawf' (fear)
 7izn imprisoned me though... livin' with images so
 vivid... witnessin' his visage turn livid in turn did it's
 part to turn this disenchanted heart rigid
 'imta 7ata3raf imtaaaa?'
 (when oh when will you realize?)
 My mother's plea steadily echoed in the back of my mind
 Beggin' to see the same optimism of when I was 9...
 Hard to believe that Omar curly's innocence may have died
 but now she tells me with pride... that she sees him in my eyes
 and I can only hope that one day I'll live up to the name
 His humility and distaste for fortune and fame...
 Holdin' me tight night after night saying "7abibi ma tinsa" (don't forget my love)
 'innee ba7ibbak inta'
 (indeed I love you)
 Knee-deep in "ithm" (sin)
 praying it won't reach my neck
 Drowning in guilt... stilts needed to catch my breath
 This "tawbah's" pathetic, but even still, I'm glad that I said it
 'Cause I ain't never been the type to do somethin' and regret it
 But Karma's a _____
 and this time, I gotta repent
 "Ya rub-bee ighfirlee wa li-walidayyah" (Oh Lord forgive me & my parents)
 now & again
 succumbin' to sin
 can happen to the strongest of men
 then again
 'imta 7ata3raf imtaaaa?'
 (when oh when will you realize?)
 the Holy Qur'aan's
 wisdom & enlightenment spawneds for persons on this earth in search of guidance along
 with a sense of purpose with respect to what they're worshipping for
 sheddin' the nervousness that surfaces when hit with a prob-
 lamenting over it ain't soberin' if shoulderin' all
 the blame of shameless misbehaving
 When the aim of it all is to learn from mistakes
 just make sure you're takin' it all
 with a grain of salt - before the train of life comes to a halt