Self-Destruct

Promise me
 Nothing that you said was a hyperbole
 All the shit you said about lovin' me
 Every day for 18 months, just say it's true
 I'm sorry
 It's just another product of anxiety
 Bringing me to moments where I can't sleep
 I lie awake and think about the worst things possible
 I know that I
 Want to be
 By your side
 But it's so hard
 When we're not
 In the same
 State of mind
 Tear down the walls that you build up inside
 Do you know what I'm about to tell you?
 I miss all the days that we would spend
 Eating candy, watching TV in the bed
 Back when I was happy
 I was cool, wasn't tortured
 By this thing inside my head
 I felt there was purpose in my life
 When I could be who I wanted all the time
 Now I sit in silence
 Wishing that I could hear you say my name
 Once more for the books, just one time
 Being locked up in the back part of my mind
 Maybe I wouldn't feel what I used to feel
 When I'm staring deep in the ocean of your eyes
 These days I'm afraid of everything
 I'm afraid that everything may never change
 So I lay down on the floor
 And think about you and how you say my name
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 How you say my name
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 This is where the fun begins