No Illusions

Every time I try to write
 My words go up in smoke
 Every time I try to sing
 I lose my voice and choke
 When I try to live up to my dreams
 To make myself come true, it seems
 The truth is a cruel and twisted joke
 Someday I'll reconfigure the world
 To be the kind of place where I can free my soul
 And someday I'll reinvent my life
 In a perfect paradise where I am whole
 Until then I have to tolerate
 Disappointments and confusions
 From the day-to-day existence I endure
 A life with no illusions
 If I could live a million years
 I'd still need one more day
 If I could be the richest man
 I'd still have hell to pay
 It's not about security, wealth, or fame
 It's about my destiny, and it's a shame
 But sometimes I wish it would go away
 Come, take refuge in my head
 Imagine what an honest view you'd have of my insides
 And if I should turn up dead
 Imagine what the press would say when you turn up alive
 Someday we'll reconfigure the world
 To be the kind of place where we can free our souls
 And someday we'll reinvent our lives
 In a perfect paradise where everyone is whole
 Am I a fool for such a fantasy?
 Have I succumbed to my delusions?
 If it appears I've lost my sanity, rest assured
 I've got no illusions