The Worst

I don't know where to begin
 I'm failing and falling victim
 To this sickening
 It feels like i'm not myself
 When this feeling hits
 My insecurity ensues me
 I'm still feeding it.
 When the pressure will remain can i find pleasure in the pain?
 Can i ever learn to live with the worst inside my mind?
 Feels like nothing ever seems to work
 It doesn't matter how hard i try to fight it
 Will i survive it and come out alive?
 Bow down to the keeper of the throne
 Losing touch, not aware of what is real
 I'm not enough is the only fucking thing that i feel
 I won't bend a knee in front of the enemy
 We never recognize the warning signs
 I try to find a way to win the war inside before i lose my mind.
 Will it forever burn?
 If tides will never turn
 Can i ever learn to live with the worst inside my mind?
 Feels like nothing ever seems to work
 It doesn't matter how hard i try
 To fight it
 Will i survive it
 And come out alive?
 It's getting worse and worse and worse
 Think i'm becoming insane
 When only pressure will remain can i find pleasure in the pain?
 I'm getting worse and worse and worse
 Think i'm becoming insane
 To everyone who feels unheard
 Speak up if you feel me
 I'm getting worse and worse and worse
 To everyone who feels unheard
 Can i ever learn to live with the worst inside my mind
 No, nothing ever seems to work
 Can i ever learn to live with the worst inside my mind?
 Feels like nothing ever seems to work
 It doesn't matter how hard i try to fight it
 Will i survive it?
 Oh i keep trying
 I will survive it and come out alive