The Earth Will Swallow Me Whole

Am I supposed to feel okay?
 I spent the day alone, this year on your birthday
 'Cause it's been so long and I don't feel any different
 And the abyss, it haunts tonight
 And I'm afraid I'm defined by it
 Cause It's not going anywhere
 Will I ever make peace with this?
 As I'm waiting for the earth to swallow me up
 I'm feeling older now
 It's been a long, lonely way down
 As I'm hanging by a frayed thread of light, it burns
 I'm sinking lower now
 And I'm afraid that it won't follow me down
 (Won't follow me down)
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 But still, I ache for better days
 Though I spend most of my nights awake
 Staring at the ceiling
 Tracing lines to find my way
 To the light on the window pane
 It reflects and lights the frame
 And locks my pain away
 So it can stay another day
 In its hiding place, the only thing I can't face
 As I'm waiting for the earth to swallow me up
 I'm feeling older now
 It's been a long, lonely way down
 As I'm hanging by a frayed thread of light, it burns
 I'm sinking lower now
 And I'm afraid that it won't follow me down
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 (Won't follow me down)
 There's comfort in the fact that we share a name
 Like part of you's with me in this worn-down state
 But sometimes the thought can't stop the ache
 But sometimes, it can't stop this