Temper

You sit and you sink
 Sorrow swims in the drink
 You hoped it would drown but it floats
 In a moat that you made
 To try to keep the grief away
 Forgetting pleasure and pain weigh the same
 When we underestimate the worst of us
 We bevel the edge of our mind
 Too dull to keep the grass cut
 We could never look the snakes in the eye
 Because I have left permanent shapes in the carpet
 Outside your door
 When opportunity knocks you ignore
 I fear motion don't live here no more
 Habits form in the smoke as cloudy eyes justify
 That you don't only get high when you're low
 Lethargic in the undertow, there's something so dangerous
 When stubborn minds wish they were dead
 When we romanticize the things we've lost
 It's just rubble in rose colored light
 If you're going to feed the wolf that's at the door
 You can't hold the years anymore
 Because I have left permanent shapes in the carpet
 Outside your door
 When opportunity knocks you ignore
 I fear motion don't live here no more
 There's a consequence to giving up
 You end up begging for forgiveness from
 The things you couldn't overcome
 And it just lets your knees bleed
 Bury the shame, but now the secret weighs the same
 You carry a cross of which I'll never know the weight
 So what could I have said?
 Heaven didn't cast you out, it just let you down
 To see the color in the world around is a choice now
 So chew it up or spit it out
 The pride inside your mouth
 Because the hand you used to cast your doubt
 Spread salt on common ground