An Appeal to St. Peter

Will someone tell to me
 'cause I'm not knowing
 where do I go
 how do I get where I'm going?
 Murmur in the heart of St. Peter
 Fuelling lies and fooling eyes.
 And I try
 so hard
 to play
 the part.
 Why why why?
 Why why why?
 Oh this life
 do I believe it?
 A paradise or afterthought?
 It's not a broken heart that I'm reeling from.
 I beg for absolution.
 I don't need no comfort.
 I don't need no barefoot lover.
 Look around and you'll see my kind,
 straining as we try.
 And I try
 (Oh and I try I try)
 (I try so hard so hard)
 (So hard to play a play)
 (So hard to play the part)
 And I try
 (Oh and I try I try)
 So hard
 (I try so hard so hard)
 To play
 (So hard to play a play)
 The part
 (So hard to play the part)
 Why why why why?
 Why why why?
 Just a means to an end.
 I don't see the light.
 But soon its under my skin.
 All the rest of my life.
 At first its oh so sweet
 but now I'm in too deep
 I'm losing time.
 Think it over while I rest my bones.
 but I'm not too blind to see.
 Hurry up I'm feeling sad,
 so sorry for my self.
 I don't need no comfort.
 I don't need no barefoot lover.
 Look around you'll see my kind,
 straining as we try.
 Walking around here
 upside down
 begging with all our might.
 Can't you see you're breaking me?
 Grab me sweet afterlife!
 And I try
 (Oh and I try I try)
 So hard
 (I try so hard so hard)
 To play
 (So hard to play a play)
 A part
 (So hard to play the part)
 And I try
 (Oh and I try I try)
 So hard
 (I try so hard so hard)
 To play
 (So hard to play a play)
 A part
 (So hard to play the part)
 Why why why why?
 Why why why?
 Just a means to an end.
 I don't see the light.
 Soon its under my skin.
 All the rest of my life.
 At first its oh so sweet.
 Now I'm in too deep.
 I'm losing time.