Living Eulogy

There's so much pressure to just keep breathing
 I'm not sure my heart will keep beating
 All the things I have labored for they may fall into
 nothing if I'm not here to see the end
 What will become of me when I become the Autumn leaves?
 When all that's left of me is a shell?
 And the world moves on without me?
 Will I die tonight?
 Will I die tonight?
 Will I forever sleep?
 Will my mother weep?
 Will you remember me?
 Will you remember me?
 I exist in fear
 So in a way, I am not alive
 This foe I cannot conquer: It is my own demise
 I am terrified and I don't want to die
 This world is so beautiful
 I want to be alive...