Better Boy

Let's hold our heads up, just tonight, and pretend that we're okay
 'Cause we're okay, right?
 Dear God, I am still your son, right?
 God damn it, I need you
 I don't know you at all anymore
 And I wanted to feel something better than what I once knew
 But I am alone tonight, while the kids are out high. I am alone tonight. Do you remember This like I remember you?
 AYYYYY
 I will wake up beside you someday when we're both alone and lonely; someday when I Find the time to be a better boy. I'll be a better boy
 'Cause if I've ever wanted one thing, it'd be the last two years of our lives back
 And if I could ever tell you something, it'd be that "I still love you
 I will be a better boy if it means that you will stay here."
 I will be a better boy, a better boy