Crystal Meth Blues (About Forgiveness)

Somewhere in the back of my memory elbow and glass collide.
 The smell of burning shower curtains—today I'll stay on your good side. "
 I promise not to get too drunk.
 I promise not to eat today.
 I promise just another pill or two and then I'll be OK."
 Somewhere in the back of my memory foot and mouth collide.
 I know you think I could have done better; I swear to god I tried. "
 I promise not to get too drunk.
 I promise not to get fucked up.
 I promise just another drink or two and that will be enough."
 I promise I won't yell no more, or kick your brother to the floor.
 I promise I won't make your mother cry." Your promises were always lies.
 You said if I ever ran away, you would cry every day.
 I know you're sorry.