Feel Better

I don't wanna feel better
 No one's ever gonna love me like that again
 I don't wanna get over you
 I wanna sit with you in bed
 I don't wanna feel better
 I'd give anything to miss you again
 I don't wanna get over it
 I wanna get under it instead
 A book sits on top of clean and messy blankets
 On a bed that fuckin' creaks at night when I get in it late
 And late at night, I'm chugging Gatorade
 And someone's breaking up when I crack up
 Because I know I'll never know just what to say
 I'm a communist, a terrorist, an MPDG thot
 Or I'm a sad girl in a dorm room, living out the shady Christian plot of
 Twilight or The Bible or The Lover by Duras
 Or I'm just really fuckin' selfish and really fuckin' lost
 But someone loved me, someone fucking loved me
 Someone fucking loved me and I fuckin' loved them too
 Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something
 I had my cake (I ate it, it ate me too and, God, no)
 I don't wanna feel better
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 (I don't wanna feel better)
 (I'd give anything to miss you again)
 (I don't wanna get over it)
 (I wanna rip it to shreds)
 We kept our liquor in a suitcase underneath my bed
 And we drank it to go out or just stay in or to feel sad
 But in a hot way, a way I'll fuckin' never have again
 The sun has began to set
 I'm a socialist, Marxist, libertarian slut
 I am an awkward teenage virgin and I sort of kinda laugh a lot in bed
 But other times, I cry or don't make noise at all
 I'd give my life to have a room that feels that small
 'Cause someone loved me, someone fucking loved me
 Someone fucking loved me, I loved them too
 Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' earned something
 I have a right to die, a right to live, a right to choose, too
 And God, no!
 Of course I don't wanna feel better!
 Can you fucking imagine?!
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 No one's ever gonna love me like that again
 I don't wanna get over it
 I wanna rip the stars to shreds
 I don't wanna feel better
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 Of course it hurt, of course it fuckin' hurt
 It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes
 That I was super scared, and we were all a train-wreck
 And also somehow making it
 I think I might've died there twice, and I would do it all again
 I'm a nihilist, a soldier, an OCD-machine
 Or I'm a healthy baby-girl who traded sunshine for disease
 But when my head hit my cheap pillow, I could tell I had a heart
 And I wanna tear this fascist Milky Way apart
 'Cause someone loved me, someone fuckin' loved me
 All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
 Goddamn it, I was worth something, I fuckin' learned something
 And it felt better in my mouth than fresh warm food
 I guess I loved you, I guess I really loved you
 All my filthy life I loved someone I barely knew
 And now you're over there, and I'm way over here
 What am I gonna do?
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 I don't wanna feel better
 No one's ever gonna love me like that again
 I don't wanna get over you
 I wanna sit with you in bed
 I don't wanna feel better
 
 (I don't wanna feel better)