Johnny's My Best Friend

Spider with four legs
 Red-bellied
 It sank in its fangs as I thumbed the scars under your eyes
 And you told the stories of the beast
 That tasted you before you had flavor
 Stopping and dwelling
 On every word that was said
 And making me question
 The contents of my bed
 Eyes forward
 Hands at my sides
 Be a good soldier
 Don't break rank
 These walls can't be breached
 If we maintain the strength of numbers
 Maintain the strength of years
 Fingers in throat, I purge myself of...
 Stopping and dwelling
 On every word that was said
 And making me question
 The contents of my bed
 We were just two inconsistencies, too afraid to abandon the familiar
 So I tricked myself into thinking you owed me something
 Made myself believe nothing changed over time
 Remember when you puked in your lap
 From your breakfast of smoke and pills
 Drove home and crawled into bed
 And asked me to cure your ills
 I brushed the powder from your hair
 And whispered as quietly as I could
 "You called me to come, does this mean you love me, too?"
 "No, you're just the only one who would"
 And when you finally snuck out the back
 And waved good-bye to what could have been
 And stopped being what I hoped could happen
 And became an, "I remember when"
 Opportunity knocked