Colten Has A Kid

I want to die again
 Just to make this stop
 But I don't mean that not at all
 Cuz existence is pain
 And I would rather drop
 This pain is all my fault
 To the man who's hiding in the mirror
 Please let me out
 Cuz I've been locked inside my head
 And I miss the solid ground
 I've got my head filled up with questions
 I'm stuck and feeling down
 I got this gun right here for answers
 And I'll shoot for passing now
 I trace the holes down from within
 Hold again and I'll try
 Drown my sorrows once again
 With this large bottle of lye
 All I ever do is sleep
 And all I ever want is
 I want a day that makes me happy
 I want a day that makes me feel alive
 I want a day that's unforgiving
 I want to make this real inside
 I really just want to let go
 I'm scratching dragging to the part
 Where I don't walk into the cars
 If I'm not here you need to know
 You were never one to fault
 I'm just sick of falling hard
 I don't really want to die
 I just want to kill my
 Empty
 Uselessness
 Lonely
 Consciousness
 Homely
 Hopelessness
 Bleeding
 Selfishness
 I don't really want the answers
 I just want this borrowed time
 Take me
 Away from this
 Constant state
 Of irredeemable darkness
 Drunk
 Again
 Drowning
 Failing
 Just
 Reset
 Me
 Line up against the wall
 Now it's time to take a shot
 Maybe this time I'll go to sleep
 With a bullet for my thoughts
 Wake up tomorrow
 And see what we have done
 Pull the shotgun from my skull
 Realize what I forgot
 It's not the end
 Please not the
 End
 For me
 Again
 I bleed
 Eternally