SELFRESENTMENT

I wear this smile on my face to hide
 Where all the pain is
 Anti social so depressed
 Im stressed
 I can't even make friends
 My happiness never lasts
 It all goes away when the day ends
 Cursed imperfection
 The person in my reflection
 I can't stand his face i hate him i sever him
 With this weapon my pain will lessen
 I wish to break him I can't accept him
 This hatred is everlasting
 Theres more to it in this rapping
 My spirit taken so im
 Breaking my heart with my own hands
 Thats how I take the problem into my
 Own hands cause the problem is me
 And no one else
 But only I know this
 No conveying emotions
 Dying inside but won't show it never
 So listen closely
 Carry my body like Mariah
 Up to the heavens where we never expire
 My mind blank im surrounded by
 Negative thoughts I question whether or
 Not I climbed out of hell or from heaven
 I dropped dont envy me jealousy not
 What I deserve hurt me until my lifes
 Energy stops when I leave this earth to
 Rot in the dirt where the centipedes flock
 And my memories become lost
 The devil he called me and I answered him
 My last breath was the cost
 Fuck
 The word burden hurts so much
 That's why I call myself that
 So that I can hurt myself
 Without leaving scars on my body
 I carve yet another hole into my heart
 With these words
 My own words
 I'm sorry