Every Once in a While

Every once in a while they come together
 Hand in hand envy and rage to fill me everywhere
 Every once in a while when someone has success
 I feel distressed and I wish their unhappiness
 What is this?
 What could it be that makes me dream of days of darkness?
 What is this?
 How can it be that your success makes me so angry?
 I feel so lost
 It just doesn't make sense
 Every once in a while they come together
 Hand in hand cruelty and joy to fill me everywhere
 Every once in a while when someone falls in life
 I feel an intoxicating happiness
 What is this?
 What could it be that makes me wish more days of darkness?
 What is this?
 How can it be that your demise makes me so happy, jubilant, joyful?
 Every once in a while they tempt us to desire that things go wrong
 That you fall down, that life becomes hard
 Every once in a while I wish they never bothered us again
 That you did well, that your joy were my joy
 And I may never know where those feelings come from
 They are like ripples in a still pond
 And I may never know why those feelings come and go
 It's just important that I don't fuel them with more thoughts
 Fire meets fire only cos it's our own desire
 The fire dies when it meets the field of peace
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 Every once in a while they tempt us to desire that things go wrong
 That you fall down, that life becomes hard
 Every once in a while I wish they never bothered us again
 That you did well, that your joy were my joy