Patterns

Patterns in my life that i trace ev'ry day
 Patterns as i say the things i always say
 Patterns in the ceiling as i lie awake
 Why are patterns haunting ev'ry move i make?
 Just look, here i am on cue, again
 Upset, feeling torn in two, again
 Afraid, saying i'm okay
 Making little jokes
 Till i run away, again
 And yet today i am not the same
 I feel my life slipping from its frame
 Strange feelings rise, feelings with no name
 And i can't face them
 So i shake them hard
 Fold them up
 And tuck them safely away
 Again
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 Patterns that begin as i walk through a door
 Patterns in the curtains and the kitchen floor
 Patterns in the day's routines i must arrange
 Patterns in the ways i try... but never change
 Just look, as i'm thrown a curve again
 I leap, then i lose my nerve again
 In tears, running home i go
 Secretly relieved
 Safe with what i know, again
 And yet i know i am not the same
 Inside my heart is something i can't tame
 I feel my mind bursting into flame
 And i must change
 Or else i'll break apart
 Or break away
 And end up having to start
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 Again
 Patterns through the day
 I seem to use to give my life a shape
 Patterns through the house
 That give me comfort
 When i need escape
 Patterns that lead me nowhere
 At all.