Habit

I've got a habit
 Of pulling apart these pieces
 Til they don't make sense
 Tangled up
 I'm lost with no direction
 Can't tell where it starts and where it ends
 As hard as I try
 To rearrange the moments in my mind
 It hurts every time
 Hurts every time
 You told me to jump
 So I jumped
 I didn't look where I landed
 I put it down to bad habit
 If you'd told me to run
 Then I'd run
 I'm trying to shake out the pattern
 I put it down to bad habit
 All of my doubts
 May or may not matter
 But I still carry around
 Picture perfect shattered in a moment
 When I hit the ground
 As hard as I try
 Something pulls it back into the light
 So I close my eyes
 I close my eyes
 You told me to jump
 So I jumped
 I didn't look where I landed
 I put it down to bad habit
 If you'd told me to run
 Then I'd run
 I'm trying to shake out the pattern
 I put it down to bad habit
 I can't take it
 I can't take it anymore
 I can't shake this
 Still rattling my bones
 I can't take it
 I can't take it anymore
 You told me to jump
 So I jumped
 I didn't look where I landed
 I put it down to bad habit
 If you'd told me to run
 Then I'd run
 I'm trying to shake out the pattern
 I put it down to bad habit
 As hard as I try
 Something pulls it back into the light