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I try and describe the hurt
 But I can't find the words
 Is this what I deserve?
 Is this what I deserve to be?
 I just can't commit
 But it's so hard to quit
 Is this the way it is?
 Is this the way it has to be?
 I know what I want to say
 Not how to say it
 I wish it was easy
 To get all this out of my head
 But shit ain't as simple
 As talking about all the feelings
 That I don't know how to express
 Now it's a problem
 A blunt and a bottle
 I swim to the bottom of
 Out of regret
 That never solve it
 What did I expect?
 I don't bring it up to you
 Out of respect
 For you
 All I go through
 It's all old news to you
 You don't care to hear it now
 Or hear about it
 You don't care to hear me out
 And I'm so used to it
 I'm no use to you
 I try and describe the hurt
 But I can't find the words
 Is this what I deserve?
 Is this what I deserve to be?
 I just can't commit
 But it's so hard to quit
 Is this the way it is?
 Is this the way it has to be?