TO SHEPHERD THE FLOCK OF GOD

There was a figure
 Beside my bed at night
 I focused my eyes
 And it didn't go away
 There was a hole in me
 I was just a child
 I didn't know why everything
 Made me so afraid
 My stomach in a knot
 Lie down and talk to God
 Smell the sulfur and the dry ice
 From the haunted house
 Church mouse in the pipes
 Run and hide
 Now they got my guts
 And a feather on the scale
 And they can't decide
 But if it all lines up
 I'll see you on the other side
 I feel the cracks in my agency
 As I fall back through the years
 And I am erased
 There is nothing deep inside my soul
 But I dream of being whole
 The premonition of my evil thoughts
 Shines brighter than my dreams
 I can't look away
 There is nothing in my soul
 But I dream of being whole
 And everything was just an inch out of
 Alignment with the world I thought I knew
 The distant nausea that I was lost somewhere
 Without assistance
 Without an exit
 I covered what I saw
 With the expectations
 Of people I was not
 Glass forming in my stare
 I didn't know how I could
 Have a sense of who I was
 The distance grew every day
 And I didn't care
 My stomach in a knot
 Lie down and talk to God
 Smell the sulfur and the dry ice
 From the haunted house
 Church mouse in the pipes
 Run and hide
 Now they got my guts
 And a feather on the scale
 And they can't decide
 My stomach in a knot
 Lie down and talk to God
 Smell the sulfur and the dry ice
 From the haunted house
 Church mouse in the pipes
 Run and hide
 Now they got my guts
 And a feather on the scale
 And they can't decide
 But if it all lines up
 I'll see you on the other side
 I feel the cracks in my agency
 As I fall back through the years
 And I am erased
 There is nothing deep inside my soul
 But I dream of being whole
 The premonition of my evil thoughts
 Shines brighter than my dreams
 I can't look away
 There is nothing in my soul
 But I dream of being whole
 The glass in front of my eyes
 Covers everything
 And I can't break it away
 The glass in front of my eyes
 Covers everything
 And I can't break it away
 And everything was just an inch out of
 Alignment with the world I thought I knew
 The distant nausea that I am lost somewhere
 Without assistance
 Without an exit
 (And everything was just an inch out of)
 My stomach in a knot
 Lie down and talk to God
 Smell the sulfur and the dry ice
 From the haunted house
 (Alignment with the world I thought I knew)
 Church mouse in the pipes
 Run and hide
 Now they got my guts
 And a feather on the scale
 And they can't decide
 (The distant nausea that I am lost behind)
 My stomach in a knot
 Lie down and talk to God
 Smell the sulfur and the dry ice
 From the haunted house
 (Crystalline distance)
 Church mouse in the pipes
 Run and hide
 Now they got my guts
 And a feather on the scale
 And they can't decide
 My stomach in a knot– knot– kno–kno–
 Lie– Lie– Lie down and talk to God– God– Go–Go–
 Church mouse in the pipes
 Run and hide
 Now they got my guts
 And a feather on the scale
 And they can't decide
 My stomach in a knot– knot– kno–kno–
 Lie– Lie– Lie down and talk to God– God– Go–Go–
 Church mouse in the pipes
 Run and hide
 Now they got my guts
 And a feather on the scale
 And they can't decide
 I wish things could be so bright
 But there's only deadened light
 I can't see anything
 Through the glass that covers my life
 I wish things could be so bright
 But there's only deadened light
 I can't see anything
 Through the glass that covers my life
 (My life)
 (My life)
 (My life)