Door in Autumn

New day, the view changes behind the window
 Seems I lived through it many times
 20th autumn and all the same so sorrowful
 In me became much colder, exhaust the rest of my heat
 I became indifferent as wind
 Grey as sky and cold as autumn rain
 I play this autumn part as I was born for it
 And I drop off old leaves, old leaves
 Autumn breathing brings me pictures which I already saw in past
 I see you on them, but you only there
 I paint in watercolor pictures and dreams
 Leaf through illustrations of us
 I leave the past behind the autumn's door
 I fall again... without you